{"product_id":"0656605604213","title":"Dub Refuge","description":"I've had a rough life, and unless it was so, I would not have even considered sharing my story since while writing I have found it hard to believe that I was so lost, so dark, so empty and as co-dependent as any other person in any other abusive relationship I have ever met; something I've never acknowledged before now. \u003cbr\u003e Don't worry though, I won't bore you with another sad story of childhood abuse and neglect, even though I was an unloved, emotionally and psychologically abused slave-child, which was pretty awful in my opinion if only because of being the one who had to live it; however, I do want to touch on those parts that I believe had the biggest impact on the forming of my mind. Those parts that include the fear, favoritism, criticism, traumatic experiences and inner anger I grew up with, which led to the outward anger, hostility, anxiety, lack of self-esteem, neediness, co-dependency and depression I experienced for my entire adult life up until this point. \u003cbr\u003e My upbringing doomed me to seek love wherever I believed I could find it, starting-out by marrying the first man I ever dated in order to escape my abusive childhood home. My husband and I divorce four years later and in doing so, I abandon my first two children which leads to subjecting myself to drunkenness and sexual promiscuity, followed by seven years of torment from a violently abusive, lying, child-molesting, drug-addicted, alcoholic boyfriend whom I end-up marrying. After multiple abortions I am blessed with a daughter, face down a demon, divorce for the second time, find the love of my life, give birth to another son and then the battle against my life-threatening depression begins while maintaining a façade of normalcy. \u003cbr\u003e Throughout my life I find God, then lose Him, then find Him once more, with my relationship with the Lord being based entirely on what was happening in my tumultuous life at any-given moment, although it is this relationship that saves me during my darkest moments whether I knew it or not. \u003cp\u003eAnatomy of a Life is a haunting and heart-rending memoir which starts as a child's normal life, but eventually turns into one of tragedy once one abuser after another places their eternal prints on a young girl's psyche. Forty-five years later, through the love of her husband and children, as well as her faith in God's promises, Penelope has survived, and though still a battle at times, is thriving. Hopefully, this story will strike a chord with those who have lived through similar circumstances, eventually seeing that there is a light at the end of whatever dark tunnel you may be traveling.\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"ASTHMATIC KITTY RECORDS","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":47087714205936,"sku":"0656605604213","price":14.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0737\/7593\/9824\/files\/0656605604213_p0.jpg?v=1763512053","url":"https:\/\/shop-qa.barnesandnoble.com\/products\/0656605604213","provider":"Barnes \u0026 Noble (DEV)","version":"1.0","type":"link"}