{"product_id":"2940013057210","title":"Looking Up And Falling Down","description":"Looking down while falling up refers to my looking at earthly sources for fulfillment which God used to bring me closer to himself. My story involves a series of struggles with sexual lust and loneliness as well as a latent desire to follow after God which gradually replaced my lust and loneliness over time. The settings for my story include universities in the U.S., Canada, Austria, Norway, Sweden, Spain, Japan, Mexico, and elsewhere for shorter periods. My marriages include an American, a Norwegian and a Mexicana. My children were raised in three different countries. Their take on my story was so strong that two of them no longer speak to me. Nevertheless, I feel my story of struggling between sexual lust and a Christian life deserves to be read by others who may be going through similar struggles. If there is no larger appeal to my story then why has God allowed me to experience his mercy and grace other than to relate his victory in my life to others. My story took me through several different Christian denominations as well. But the basic story line is the struggle I had with trying to be a Christian while also harboring sexual lust within me. My lust caused me to marry at a too early age and much later leave that woman for another woman equally given to lust. The ensuing 22 year period generated havoc with my life as I tried to build a veneer of Christ over my sin. I sought to please each one equally and failed to please either. I gradually surrendered myself to God as my loneliness pressed me deeper and deeper into dispair. Eventually my prayers were answered in a way I could never have predicted and didn't deserve. While I have written several scientific texts this is my first attempt to write for a general audience. I hope my story sparks your attention and I hear from you.","brand":"David Warren Fischer","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":47180024479984,"sku":"2940013057210","price":0.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0737\/7593\/9824\/files\/2940013057210_p0.jpg?v=1763576204","url":"https:\/\/shop-qa.barnesandnoble.com\/products\/2940013057210","provider":"Barnes \u0026 Noble (DEV)","version":"1.0","type":"link"}