{"product_id":"2940016068770","title":"Committing to Lonely","description":"When I married him, I was committing myself to one man for 'as long as we both shall live'. I was committing myself to a life of 'happily-ever-after'; to a life of 'for better or worst' and 'in sickness and health'.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eOur wedding was a romantic, true love story. That was what many co-workers and acquaintances believed. I thought so too. A 'true love' that started 18 years ago and had shortly ended when I realized that the only one 'in love' was me.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eWhen forgiveness is given and anger is erased, then a door to 'living' a \"what if I had\/we had\" scenario began.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eAfter several years of being married and looking back to before the wedding; I had seen what my closest friends were trying to tell me. Looking back; I had glimpses of who he really was. I had seen how I made excuses and willingly put blinders on my eyes.....just because I wanted to believe in a true first love.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI was committed to lonely. While sitting next to 'the man of my dreams,' I was isolated from love.\"\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eSome times \"what ifs\" are better left alone.","brand":"Bookstand Publishing","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":47071202377968,"sku":"2940016068770","price":7.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0737\/7593\/9824\/files\/2940016068770_p0.jpg?v=1763628638","url":"https:\/\/shop-qa.barnesandnoble.com\/products\/2940016068770","provider":"Barnes \u0026 Noble (DEV)","version":"1.0","type":"link"}