{"product_id":"2940045358460","title":"I'm Not The Man I Used To Be","description":"\u003cp\u003eI've felt transgender since my earliest memory. The word didn't even exist at that time, and there was no one I could talk to about it. So I spent a great many years trying to figure it out on my own, somehow knowing that I dared not reveal my secret to anyone.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI carried quite a burden of shame, and I went through countless episodes of denial - thinking I could ignore, outwit and ultimately defeat those feelings that kept coming back even stronger.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAnd, in the end, acceptance was my only option. The suicide rate for transgender people - those who cannot resolve their gender dysphoria - is abysmally high. I'm thankful to be of strong enough mind that I did not succumb to depression or hopelessness.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIt's my hope that by telling my story I can give aid and comfort to others who are on the same path and provide education to those who seek to understand the transgender condition.\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Clay Reston","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":47110134464752,"sku":"2940045358460","price":4.49,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0737\/7593\/9824\/files\/2940045358460_p0.jpg?v=1763677080","url":"https:\/\/shop-qa.barnesandnoble.com\/products\/2940045358460","provider":"Barnes \u0026 Noble (DEV)","version":"1.0","type":"link"}