{"product_id":"9780744246308","title":"Real Raw Hope","description":"\u003cp\u003eOn October 1, 2015 an active shooter took the lives of nine people on the campus where I work. Then\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003ehe took his own. I buried my feelings about the tragedy. Deeply. Eleven months passed before everything\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003ebegan to surface.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIn November 2016, I opened my mouth to a therapist who patiently let me work through foreign feelings.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eEventually, I felt safe enough to begin sharing a lifetime of secrets. It was excruciating and impossible to\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003espeak about them out loud, so I wrote them instead.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis book is the result of my first five months of therapy. Writing has given a voice to the child who\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003estopped talking about the truth over fifty years ago ─ from the four year old to the fifty year old ─ too many\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003esecrets. Secrets buried under shame, guilt, great fear, embarrassment, loyalty to family and abusive men. A\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003elist so long, its heavy weight had become too much to bear.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Montezuma Publishing (Aztec Shops)","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":49987784540400,"sku":"9780744246308","price":34.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"url":"https:\/\/shop-qa.barnesandnoble.com\/products\/9780744246308","provider":"Barnes \u0026 Noble (DEV)","version":"1.0","type":"link"}