{"product_id":"9780997925104","title":"The Oat Project: How I Faced My Fear and Finally Came of Age in One Wild Summer","description":"\u003cp\u003eWhen I told my mom friends that being a preacher’s daughter meant no movies, dances, or alcohol, and being out of control was a root of sin, they insisted I get drunk, at a party they would plan. I did not agree but said yes. I was the mother of three and the wife of a terrific fellow. \u003cem\u003eWhat happiness or self-knowledge do I lack?\u003c\/em\u003e But considering their reactions widened cracks that had begun to appear in the life I had carefully cultivated to be okay with myself, to handle panic attacks, and to manage fear. Then, Ellery asked, “What else have you not done, Jene'? Have you smoked weed?”\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“No!” I said, horrified. “It’s a drug!”\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“Skinny dipped?” asked Beryl.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“This body? Naked? In public? No.” My pre-three-kids body was a distant memory. “Ever watched porn?” asked Sarah.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“No! I’m married! I mean, I have sex.” That last part came out more like a question than a statement.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“Had role-play sex?” asked Beryl.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“You mean like dressing up?” My mind stopped in shock.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“Yes,” she said, in her matter-of-fact voice. “Like Schoolgirl versus Godzilla.”\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI couldn’t help but giggle. “No, definitely not.” My eyes widened. “Wait, have you?”\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAs the scope of my inexperience grew, so did their incredulousness. My curiosity ballooned into wanting to have a few “normal” experiences, so we made a list of things I “should” have done already, that they wanted to do with me. Little did I know it would lead to a summer of experimentation in conservative Colorado Springs; debauchery, vice, and completely naked bodies, doing things I’d been taught lead straight to hell, including getting rip-roaring drunk. I was scared spitless.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"SpiralSpiral Publishing","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":49972175798512,"sku":"9780997925104","price":19.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"url":"https:\/\/shop-qa.barnesandnoble.com\/products\/9780997925104","provider":"Barnes \u0026 Noble (DEV)","version":"1.0","type":"link"}