{"product_id":"9781462849390","title":"LIVING WITH DEPRESSION","description":"Depression is a real mental illness that affects so many people; the young, the middle aged and the elderly. It can kill you! Your mind is weak and you have these thoughts that never goes away for months or years and you have these feelings that makes you feel empty inside. Sometimes you might get urges to hurt yourself really deep or just mild and that means you have lost the battle with yourself. When you know your emotions takes over that you can't control them and you notice you lose friends or partners and even family, that should be a real sign that something isn't right but of course you are blinded and you start seeing the world differently like it hates you.  This is a Poetry book that gives you an inside look of how a person deals with Depression on a daily basis. Just when you think it is over and you can enjoy and live life again, it comes back; worse. It's like someone hits you over the head with a bigger rock each time but every time you go a bit backwards or a lot you become stronger in the end. You may not see it or believe it but when it knocks you to the ground, get up and knock it back.  Denial Expressive Paranoid Rage Escape Suffer Suicidal Illusion Oblivious Nasty  These words defines Depression either what you want, how you feel, how you don't see yourself, how you do see yourself, it all adds up in the end. Having all these words inside of you, who wouldn't go crazy?  There are 5 Sections in this Poetry book and they are Thoughts, Feelings\/Emotions, Self Harm, Relationships and Life. Thoughts It can lead you in serious trouble. Your mind can constantly tell you things that will make you sad and very depressed and these thoughts can be 'why bother' or 'I don't care any more' and 'I’m fat'. These thoughts are just a few and they can last day and\/or night for a very long time which can make you go insane sometimes. You have to keep retraining your mind so it is more focused but in saying that, it is really hard that sometimes you can't go through with it any more because the mind has been replaced from you to this evil thing that forces you to create harsh things in your head and believe it.   Feelings is such a huge thing that you can't control. When you're a sleep and wake up that's when you know how you are going to be feeling throughout the  whole day. Your feelings should always bring out the best in people not the worst so you just want to be alone because if you feel like shit and really depressed as you don't want to go outside and see people because they will be depressed. How you feel around people will make them feel the same way so if your happy then people will have a laugh with you and have a good time but if you're feeling sad and depressed to the point where you can't force a smile then they don't want to be near you as they want to feel happy and not like you which is miserable and pathetic.   Emotions makes us who we are but sometimes our emotions go crazy. We have  lots of nice emotions that makes people like us like happy, affection, interest, excited, love, pride, etc. When you have Depression on the other hand your emotions are the opposite to what people like about you and you start losing people around you because you are now depressed, sad, jealous, anxious, suffering, angry, frustrated, hate, miserable, rage, anxiety, etc. All these makes people not like us and funny enough we who have Depression don't like it either. It's not like we choose to be depressed or sad, sometimes it just happens and we cannot control it. It's beyond your control and yeah having Depression affects you mentally and physically to the point where if you are those things that makes up Depression than it can destroy you and steam needs to be let out some place so of course it comes out from your mind to your body. To release it you need to cry, scream, hate people, throw things, isolate yourself, hurt yourself, etc. Even if you don't want to it makes sure it comes","brand":"Xlibris AU","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":47155632079088,"sku":"9781462849390","price":7.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0737\/7593\/9824\/files\/9781462849390_p0.jpg?v=1763679144","url":"https:\/\/shop-qa.barnesandnoble.com\/products\/9781462849390","provider":"Barnes \u0026 Noble (DEV)","version":"1.0","type":"link"}