Idle Thoughts

Idle Thoughts

My mind’s racing through the events of my life
My ups, my downs, my joys and my strife

Looking at the people who love me, and the ones that don’t
Seeing my goals in life, the things I need and want

My passions, my desires, my feelings deep within
My loves, my hates, my blessings and my sins

I can feel the strength that I’ve acquired, and my moments of purity
I see it all through my third eye, the one that looks inside of me

Winding through my life story, the journey to get me here
Exploring my successes and failures, trusts and fears

My insecurities I mask and the flaws in my reflection
My constant need for acceptance, my desire for perfection

I’ve given too much of myself to try to appease others
Whether it’s parents, relationships, sisters or brothers

So life has brought me to this point, a moment of clarity
Straight faced, deep in thought, no time for hilarity

Staring blankly into space, can’t even see what’s ahead
Totally incoherent to what’s around me in this bed

My eyes are wide open, searching left to right
But I can’t see where I’m at, there’s no reality in sight

I’m here but I’m not, in the physical sense
It’s clear but it’s not, looking through my third lens

So my mind has traveled the journey, its given me relief
To the pains of my life, the losses and the grief

To the triumphs of my life, my perfect imperfections
The convergence of me living in self-satisfaction

I’ve had to make the vow to be who I desire to be
Because no-one can live my life for me but me

So as I sit back and think of the joy and pain life wrought
I just let my mind wonder through my “Idle Thoughts”