Wishing on a Star: Jade's Story (Black Rainbows)

Brittany pulled out a stool at the little counter, separating the kitchen from a small dining room. I took the other one. Would you like some coffee? She asked. I held up my hand, no, I’m fine, I nodded. The counter was spilling over with papers, and folders. I watched her, as she rambled through them. What is this about? I finally asked. Its Amber’s autopsy report, she said not looking up. I have her autopsy report I corrected her. Brittany met my eyes, no, she stated, you do not, you have one that was made for you. I have Amber’s autopsy report. She took out three folders, looking through them she sat the other two aside, before taking a stack of papers out of it and handing them to me. I took the papers from her; it was her turn to watch me. It was identical to the report I had, until it got to her toxicology report. Tetradotoxin, Scopolamine, and Ketamine Hydro-chloride were at extreme levels in Amber’s blood. This was not on the original report. I didn’t know what it meant, but I didn’t see the cause for alarm. I looked at Brittany, I spoke calmly, my sister was getting high on Meth, and Heroin, that was the cause of her death, but I would like you to keep that quiet, I told everyone she died from pneumonia. . Brittany took the papers away from me; don’t be an Idiot she declared, did you read her toxicology report? I nodded, but I don’t know what that means, I guess it’s just the clinical names for the drugs. Your sister was in with some high-powered people, she cried the drugs that killed your sister are mind control drugs. They cause rambling speech, paranoid actions, disassociation and in high doses, high or deadly fever, and if not monitored correctly by medical professionals, maybe even death. How? Do you know that? I heard my voice through a dry throat ask. Where did you get this? I have a friend at the Coroner’s office. The one who gave you this report I asked? Brittany, looked at me, the very one, she stated. Some of the Scientist at MKULTRA, a company ran by the CIA, used to do experiments with these drugs, they are well documented. I laughed a dry laugh, sure Amber was hanging out with members of the CIA, great Brittany, you can do better than that, why would that be left out of the original report? I asked. I tried to put on a brave front, but I was trembling so hard I was sure Brittany could see it. Brittany shuffled swiftly through the many papers that were spread on the counter. Her first autopsy report was done by a General Practitioner she said someone else requested a separate and second autopsy. This one was done by a Forensic Pathologist, after he got the toxicology report back he was afraid to issue the new autopsy exam report, or someone scared him off. He shredded the report, but not well enough “my friend” I will call him found it, and retrieved his notes from the computer where it had been sent to the recycle bin, but not deleted. When he saw the name on the report, he called me that is a copy of the report done by the Forensic Pathologist. She went on, no need for you to worry that I will say anything, I Loved Amber. I would never do that, still I will not have this getting out that I gave you this, and "My Friend”, could lose his job or even get jail time, who knows. She was flustered, Jade she whispered, coming and hugging me again, did you read this report. I nodded, yeah, I did I said dryly, I knew what she meant. I met with one of her doctors in Rome; I said softly, I was well aware of it. I sat there with Brittany staring at me, as I listened to the humming of the old refrigerator in the corner of the small kitchen. I didn't know which one was the loudest, it or my heart..............