34

All these questions I have. I thought I was loved. I thought I was kind. I thought I was fun. I thought I was cute, smart and successful.

But life tells a different story and can suck out your glory.

Why me? How could I allow this to happen to me at 34? What have I done? Why have my bad decisions continue to haunt me? Maybe I deserved it! I thought I got rid of the voices in my head. I am not her!

What steps could I have taken to avoid such tragedy? It speaks, "you are not worthy, you are not deserving, you are nothing"! The voices never left?

I failed. I wanted to die! I never get it right! I am lifeless.....

I am death.