Blood and Water: : A Soul's Dark Night

"You promised me you would avoid the sorrow, not wallow in it."
"I remember. Every day when I'm under the earth's crushing weight I think about what you said. Tell me, how shall I avoid the darkness if it has swallowed me whole?"
"You cannot avoid he darkness, embrace it. Avoid the sorrow. There is a considerable difference. Know yourself and know your God. He hides in the dark waiting for you. I am afraid you will no longer find him in the light."

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN A MONK IS MADE A CREATURE OF THE NIGHT AGAINST HIS WILL? MUST HE LEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT GOD IN A WORLD BEREFT OF HOPE, LIGHT, AND LOVE? IS THERE A WAY BACK HOME?