Out of Sane- Falling Out of Life

Why do they call it “insane”? “Out of sane” is better. Losing all of that sanity that is supposed to get you through life. Instead, I found myself falling out of life. Twists and turns, twelve surgeries causing chronic pain, leaving me permanently disabled with complete loss of independence. Two soul-stealing marriages all leading to deterioration into a world of pain, alcohol, drugs, and pills. Walking hand-in-hand with mental illness. The hate. The anger. The sadness for what used to be. I hope this helps others out there not to fall out of life as I did. Or at least, know there is someone out there who feels your pain.