It's Just Broken

She started talking and my mind started slipping away glancing around at the brand new countertops, appliances, and cabinets trying to mask ancient disappointments that still held a leading role in our family no matter how many times she remodeled. The broken dishes and the screaming insults held a starring role in here. Can you please just once leave me alone? Mom, please stop throwing dishes at me! There's a breaking point, Jocelyn. That's just not a pain you can ever heal from. I'm so sorry, Mom. I didn't know what any of these disappointments and hurts were. They had personified and left their mark on our family long before I was born. Despite my innocence in their creation, my life had been marred by those disappointments all the same. Throughout the years I had imagined several scenarios as the pain you can never heal from, but imagination was my only tool in examining the reality of who my family is and what they've been through. Although the house I had lived in left plenty of room to imagine that something, at some point, swallowed all of them whole and spit them out in fragments, trapped together, trying to heal, and injuring each other immensely as they set about that process.

For 31 years Bilson Annesley has lived in the shadows of the hurts and disappointments that make up her family, but as those start to be revealed, Bilson's own hurts and disappointments that started when she was only 12 years old begin a revelation of their own. That's the tricky thing about The Truth: "When you're healing and there's still some truth left to reveal, it will force out so there's complete healing. It feels harsh, but ultimately it is loving so we truly heal instead of partially." This book is for anyone who has ever been broken and needs to heal.