Without Warning: My Personal Journal of Struggling with Grief

No time to say good-bye.

You were gone before we knew it,

And only God knows why.

On June 20, 2005, Jeanie Kaiser heard the words from a doctor that no one wants to hear: "Bad news, he didn't make it..." After 45 years of marriage, her husband, Bob, who had been in good health, suffered a mild heart attack. This required a heart catheterization and Bob unexpectedly died following the procedure. Amidst the intense grief, there was confusion, anger and questioning God:

• Why did you allow this to happen to someone who took such good care of himself?
• How am I going to survive this new life without my partner, his touch, his conversation, his companionship?
• Will I ever feel normal again?
• Was there something I could have done differently?
  

At the suggestion of her sister-in-law, Jeanie writes down her feelings, experiences, and interactions in a very personal journal that is presented here. The hope is that Without Warning: My Personal Journal of Struggling with
Grief will be a comfort and source of encouragement to others as they work through their own period of loss and grief.